God works in mysterious ways that we don't always realize...
i have been thinking a lot lately about how God guides us. he guided me to a bible school, a wife, a house, a job for kimberly, a job for me (even though i'm still trying to figure that one out), etc., etc., etc. i don't always know or understand how this works, but i'm extremely grateful for God's leading, and guiding. when you look back on it, it is very evident that God had his hand in everything, for everything to worked together. and even though this is evident, i sometimes wonder and question God's leading and working, and wonder if it's all just decisions we make and that's it. but then i see God in it, and then i don't, and then i do. oh, the pendulum swing. regardless, i'm still grateful, and we say "Praise the Lord!"
jonathan
jonathan
posted by jpunk5 | 1:52 p.m.
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Yeah, I guess that's one of the real struggles with faith - accepting that our idea of how things should go isn't always (or if my case, hardly bloody ever)what God has in mind. Ahh, the joys of limited understanding!
but when we know that things won't always go our way, but may go God's way, can we trust him enough to go along with it/be okay with it, even though the path looks completely different from what we expected? that can be difficult.
VERY difficult! but I guess it's all part and parcel with the idea of having to surrender daily - even hourly to God's will for us...but I don't have to like it...do I? Do you think it's okay to be a reluctant surrender-er? To have to be continually prodded into surrender? Or does this reluctance render the surrender meaningless?
i'd like to think that we will be able to come to the place where surrendering is easy, though that may not be true, but i do think that there can be much joy in surrendering to God's will whether we like it or not. that just made me think of what paul said. "rejoice always, i will say it again, rejoice!" hmmm...
I would agree that if you're not pleased to accept God's will, maybe you might want to examine why - if only for your own peace of mind! We all (Jesus included) want you to be happy. :)
God's will really is the best for us. It's not wrong to doubt that, but hopefully, as Jonathan said, we can all come to a place where we trust it.
Reluctance DEFINITELY DOES NOT render surrender meaningless. If anything, it might mean more coming through difficulty.
For me it's not that I really doubt God's ability or his plan for me. I know that He's 'got my back' and that I that He/'they' really do know best.
But I think sometimes I feel like surrenedering to God's will for me is comparable to doing my dishes. (I will now proceed to stretch this metaphor as far as possible.) Y'see, sometimes it feels like a chore - something I SHOULD do and eventually am FORCED to do because of all the gross moldy stuff growing on said unwashed dishes...
I'm not saying this is my attitude all the time, but every once in a while I've become so caught up in mememememememe that I push God to the backburner and then it takes something a bit more drastic (the mold on the dishes) to remind me that God should be my priority if I want a 'clean' life.
But hence my term 'reluctant surrender' - at times it's just not the priority that it should be and I have to be badgered into paying attention to Him. PRAISE GOD THAT HE CONTINUES TO BADGER ME AND DOESNT EVER JUST WRITE ME OFF!!!
Perhaps this makes little sense to you, and perhaps I now sound like a heathen...and perhaps you're now competely disgusted at my housecleaning habits...
(sorry about the longest post ever)
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